The Source
For Jane: With All the Love I Had, Which Was Not Enough
I pick up the sparkling beads
in black,
this thing that moved once
around flesh,
and I call God a liar,
I say anything that moved
like that
or knew
my name
could never die
in the common verity of dying,
and I pick
up her lovely
dress,
all her loveliness gone,
and I speak to all the gods,
Jewish gods, Christ-gods,
chips of blinking things,
idols, pills, bread,
fathoms, risks,
knowledgeable surrender,
rats in the gravy of two gone quite mad
without a chance,
hummingbird knowledge, hummingbird chance,
I lean upon this,
I lean on all of this
and I know
her dress upon my arm
but
they will not
give her back to me.
Charles Bukowski
2 Comments:
What an exquisite expression of pain and loss. I can identify. Thanks for sharing this, Paschal.
Peace!
Lee, I'd say that Bukowski was the hierophant of pain and loss; it is a beautiful elegy.
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